I know it’s good to be positive it’s not like I want to be negative. It was just an easier way to deal with disappointment but I never realized that I spent all that time being sad because I was subconsciously expecting disappointment. I don’t want to get hurt but if I do then I don’t want to feel vulnerable it’s the worst feeling. This is my dilemma, worrying to much about the shit that hasn’t even happened. Am I doing this to myself or is it from past experiences…nah definitely both. I stress myself out for no reason; spending energy on shit that doesn’t matter. None of it’s right, I ain’t gonna be like this. I’mma break down my walls and take it like a man.