Tuesday, October 18, 2011


Why do misplaced things appear when not needed? and unseen when you want it the most? simply because you weren't aware of it's value unless you're about to make use of it. Take care of the people you love, not only because you need them but simply  because they are important in your life.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

everything is going to be alright maybe not today but eventually

Hope is a driving factor in helping us stay on course in life, it may feel as though it comes and goes, but in reality there is always hope, there is always a chance for something else to happen, and you need to have faith that it will. 

This empty feeling won't go away and i don't know what to do

i don’t know what it is. but lately i have this feelings that i cant understand. this feeling that there is so much lacking and so much longing that i dont even know what it is. the feeling between laughing and crying, the feeling like you want to be with someone but you want to be alone also, the feeling like you are there but not really, the feeling like you’re longing for the past but you’re excited with the future at the same time. this feeling that you cant even put into words, this feelings that you can understand.
And no, this is not depression, actually i can say that im okay now, and im not sad anymore but im not happy either. im not even heartbroken anymore, those broken pieces and pain is now almost healed but at the same time it feels like a fresh cut of blade in your heart. this is not loneliness, this is not anxiety, this is not confusion, this is not nostalgia, this is not insanity either. it is more like the combination of everything that you dont understand. and i call it emptiness, and i dont like it.

all trials are not the reasons to give up

To those of you who have pushed me, thank you- without you I wouldn’t have fallen.
To those of you who laughed at me, thank you- without you I wouldn’t have cried.
To those of you who just couldn’t love me, thank you- without you I wouldn’t have known real love.
To those of you who hurt my feelings, thank you- without you I wouldn’t have felt them.
To those of you who left me lonely, thank you- without you I wouldn’t have discovered myself,
but it is to those of you who thought I couldn’t do it— it is to you I thank the most because, without you I wouldn’t have tried.

A beautiful day

let this be your early morning song:) be inspired.
A Beautiful Day
by India.Arie
Life is a journey, 
Not a destination, 
There are no mistakes, 
Just chances we’ve taken 
Lay down your regrets cause all we have is now 

Wake up in the morning
And get out of bed
Start making a mental list in my head
Of all of the things that I am grateful for

Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes new dreams new ways
I open up my eyes and
I open up my mind and
I wonder how life will surprise me today
Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes new dreams new ways
I open up my heart and
I’m gon’ do my part and
Make this a positively beautiful day

Life is a challenge not a competition 
You can still smell the roses and be on a mission 
Just take a moment to get in touch with your heart 
Sometimes you feel like you’ve got something to prove 
Remind yourself that there’s only one you 
Just take a moment to give thanks for who you are
Let’s make this a wonderful
Let’s make this a powerful
Let’s make this a Beautiful Day
It’s a Beautiful Day

New You

“heard someone whispering that she was beautiful and she turned around and saw the face of God and she realized that was the only man she needed right now.”
I do honestly believe that people enter our lives for a reason. That everyone who we meet, who forms an impression has something to teach us. Everything that happens to us is an experience, and because of that it can never be bad. an experience can only be good because it all serves to shape the person that we are, the person that we become.

sometimes i feel like a lost soul just drifting through life

” And I need someone now. I never needed anyone, but now I need someone. Yet, I’m alone. I’m more alone then I ever been. Because, there’s more people now. More people who supposedly love me but don’t. More people who say they care but they never show they do.  But, God, how I wish I had just one person. I would give anything to have someone love me. Someone who will hold me and let me cry. I don’t have that. I never really had. It’s getting so hard to keep going. I wonder if there’s anyone who really does care. If there’s anyone who I can talk to when I need to. But, it’s just impossible. No ones there for me. And now, after all these years of being alone … I don’t even really want them there.” - Jacqueline Kelly
sometimes i feel like a lost soul just drifting through life…

i want you to see it for what it is and win

“You’re much more than a struggle that you go through
You’re not defined by your pain so let it go..”

no matter how loving or loved we are, it eventually occurs to most of us that deep down inside we’re allALONE. And when the moment comes for you to wrestle with that cold loneliness, i want you to face that damn thing. i want you to see it for what it is and win.

Be hopeful

I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That’s the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it because I believe that sometimes the impossible is possible.
I know life can be so hard. It can beat you down, it can spit in your face, it can do just about anything, and yet you can’t do a thing to prevent it. But I guarantee that one day you will smile again. You will wake up in the morning, and not have to fight the urge to cry anymore. Yes, it can take a while.. weeks, months, maybe even years. But you will get there, I promise you that.

This very minute

This very minute-
Someone is thinking of you.
Someone cares about you.
Someone misses you/wants to be with you.
Someone wants to hold your hand.
Someone wants you to be happy.
Someone wants to hug you.
Someone will do anything for you.
Someone needs to know your love is unconditional.
Someone wants to tell you how much they care.
Someone wants to stay up watching movies with you.
Someone wants to hold you in their arms.
Someone wants to see you.
Someone wants to be your lover.
Someone loves you for who you are.
Someone loves the way you make them feel.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone wants you to know they are there for.
Someone is glad that you’re their friend.
Someone is wishing you would notice them.
Someone wants to get to know you better.
Someone loves you.

sorry this is a sad post

I get up every morning and go to bed every night, with this feeling that something is missing, but I don’t know what and I don’t know why. This emptiness is just killing me, and I can’t do anything, not even cry.
I sometimes pretend to be happy, talking a lot and laughing out loud so that nobody would know what’s really inside. But at the end of the day, I always find myself all alone, encountering the crucial truth that I’m too broken inside that not even a million laughter can take it away.
sorry this is a sad post 

somewhere, someone knows the words to the songs you sing

There is someone out there for me
Can you tell me his name? 
How does he laugh? How does he cry? 
What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I’m here? 
Where are you??  -   “Where Are You” - natalie
You yearn for someone not because you want to be complete but because you want to add more color to your life. That person must not necessarily break through your schedule but inspire you to manage your time instead. You see, it is not a matter of distance and time. It is more like a relationship in a higher level. It is smiling alone every once in a while, knowing that somewhere, somehow, someone smiles at the thought of you too.

Never blame any day in your life

That pain you feel: that’s life. The confusion and fear: that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that is worth fighting for.
The things about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you’re alive again. Life just kinda restarts.So smile, laugh, forgive, believe, and love, all over again.

Where are you now?

There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave. You were what I wanted. I gave what I gave. I’m not sorry I met you. I’m not sorry it’s over. I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save.”
dear you,
You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this; No matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we’ve cried; though I saw this as a possible outcome, I took the risk and gave you my all. Never, ever, did I give up on you. Do not give up on yourself. Believe. Anything is possible. And if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach. i miss you.

I've never had you, but I'm going to let go

Dear Heart, I’m sorry, but I once again fell for someone that doesn’t like me back..you can feel free to break anytime now. This time, I’m ready for it…”
Love shouldn’t hurt they say, but then again every rule has an exemption, because with him it does. Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel the word everyone is making a big fuss about, so then I wouldn’t get hurt. Love is the most pain I’ve ever felt in my entire life and believe me it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. Half the time you’d just be crying the other half wiping the tears and in between those a few smiles. I myself used to think that when you’re in love, you’d hear the birds singing but the only thing I heard was the hollow echo in my being. I thought the sky would turn blue but it turned gray and rained on me. I thought that my eyes would be sparkling with joy but it only glistened with the tears.
Why do we have to love someone who could never love us back and why do we dream when we know that those we have woven will cease to be but a dream? I’m not saying that love is a bad thing, it never is. What’s bad is when you fall in love and the person does not fall in love back. I wish that someday I could be in love again without having to shed a single tear and I wish that if I do, love would not hurt as bad. adapted

Always believe in yourself

“Your worth does not revolve around what others think, Your worth is what you put in yourself and know in your heart.”
When we begin to help ourselves first, though selfish it may feel, then we can begin to help others. We must first try to heal ourselves in order to realize that we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. It is only when we lose part of ourselves it is that we realize what we had. And then sometimes it is too late but that teaches us not to dwell on the past rather to learn from the situation and not have any regrets. Although many say ‘think with your head and not the heart,’ I choose to not listen and just follow my heart. That way no matter what the outcome I know I was true to myself, the other and the situation.

I'm afraid you'll leave

You have come into my life through a door I was afraid would never be opened again, for many have slammed it on their way out. So please feel free to stay as long as you’d like. But should the time come that you must leave - please, close the door gently as you go.
 I’m so paranoid of getting hurt. I am always getting my heart broken over and over. My heart has so many scars and bruises all over it. I don’t know how much just one heart can take really, and I don’t really want to find out either.
Actually, I’m a little scared to get close to anyone because everyone that said “i’ll be there”… left.
“The more we start liking somebody, the more we fear losing them. It’s a human tendency because we can’t afford to lose a person chosen among millions.”

Saturday, October 15, 2011


Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me, full of ups and downs, making me start to get tired of it. I feel like getting love drunk, falling into this beautiful dream and not coming out to face the reality. I am always walking alone, I guess I'm just another coward.

Hindi ko na hahabaan ang mga sasabihin ko.

Sa t'wing naririnig ko itong kanta ni Taylor, lagi akong napapaisip. Minsan napapatulala ako at naaalala ko ang nakaraan ko. Tao pa rin ako. Namiss ko lang nman siya. Pero sumasagi talaga sa akin kung may mali ba akong ginawa kaya niya ako iniwan o naging makasarili ba ako o kung ano man. Kung ano man ang hiwagang bumabalot sa kantang ito, isa lang ang masisiguro ko, mananatili ito sa akin at kailanman di ko ito malilimutan. :)

nonsense *sigh*

Nasasaktan ako pag nababanggit mo pangalan niya. Sobra. Wala akong karapatang magselos pero ito talaga ang nararamdaman ko. Tahimik nalang muna ako. Sorry kung nasusumbat ko sayo pero medyo, medyo lang naman, masakit talaga. Ok, wala na namang kwentang post to. Tae lang talaga.

Friday, October 14, 2011


I’m tired of being there for people. It’s not that I was forced by someone or something, it’s just,  I know the feeling to have no one. So I don’t want them to feel the way as I do. But it’s sad when no one appreciates your existence. You’re there but they’re not paying attention or they’re not caring. I just want them to remember that I was there for them when no one else was. But I want them to realize also that people change especially when they’re taken for granted or they’re not appreciated.
So if there is someone who loves or cares for you, love them or else, they’ll be gone forever. 


Ang GTEC mo, nagkakahalaga lang naman ng P70. Alagang alaga mo. Samantalang yung mga taong tunay na magaantabay sayo, hindi mo man lang tinatanong kung okay sila kahit ilang beses na silang nasira ng dahil sayo. PRICELESS SILA.
Naramdaman mo na ba yun? Yung feeling na you put so much effort in making this person happy to be with you, pero kung gaano kalaki yung effort na magpasaya, ganon din kalaki ang stakes na madali silang magsawa sayo; or pabayaan ka.
Yung kung anu-ano nang ginawa mo para mapansin ka, tapos waepek lang.
Tapos bigla mo nalang malalaman na si ganito, na NAGPAKITA LANG naman sa harapan mo, ay sinasaludo mo na parang reyna.
Sana pala naging GTEC mo nalang ako.