Who am I?

            I am unlucky with family, unlucky with relationships, unlucky with friendships too? Where are they? Do they think of me? I hope it's yes because I really do miss them my friends who makes me happy. But why they need to disappear in my life? Am I selfish? Sorry for being self-interested they know that they are the only people who gives me strength when I was weak. It so sad and tearful because little by little they are fading away. No one will talk to me when I'm in trouble and no one will give me advice when I have problems. It's hard to be alone. They are welcome in my life but if they don't want me to be their friend, it's hurts but I need to accept it. I don't know the reason why they gone little by little perhaps the problem is in me. I'm sorry for that it's hard that the only one who helps you is yourself. If they are happy now to their new friends well, glad to hear and I'm happy for them and it's pity think that they're forgetting me already. Thanks for all the good times and thanks for giving me a chance to be their friend. It is difficult to face and accept the truth I am now ALONE........

Scarlet Story

            I'm Scarlet 18 years old studying at Rizal Technological University taking up BS Education Major in English. Bata pa lang ako naramdaman ko na nag-iisa na ako kahit na nandiyan si Mommy at Kuya. Kinder pa lang ako, ako na lagi ang pumapasok at umuuwi na mag-isa sa school minsan naman nakikisabay na lang ako sa mga kapitbahay ko na classmates ko din na kasama ang kanilang mga magulang. May Mommy ako, kuya na kasama namin sa bahay at dalawang ate na may mga asawa na at wala na akong Daddy sabi ni Mommy namatay daw si Daddy dahil sa heart attack. Masaya ako dahil sila ang pamilya koat ang swerte ko dahil isa akong dugong Dela Vega. Nung grade one ako may nalaman ako na hindi ko matanggap sa sarili ko. Nakakapagtaka nga naman dahil si Mommy para ko ng lola at ang aking mga ate at si kuya ay pwede ko na silang maging Mama at Papa. Ipinagtapat sa akin ni Mommy na hindi niya ako tunay na anak, ang sakit sa pakiramdam grade one pa lang ako nun pero parang ang matured na ng pag-iisip ko. Sinabi ni Mommy na ang aking tunay na ay si Auntie Madel ang kwento ay inigay ako ni Auntie Madel kay Mommy dahil hindi daw niya ako kayang buhayin dahil may anim siyang anak at may kambal pa (isa ako dun sa kambal) dahil naninilbihan siya sa aming pamilya kaya tinanggap ako ni Mommy. Dahil bata pa ako nun akala nila wala lang sa akin yun pero habang lumalaki ako dala ko pa rin ang katotohanan na nagdadala sa akin ng kahihiyan at pagkabigo.
          Mabait sa akin si Mommy at Kuya lahat ng pangangailangan ko  naibibigay nila. Nung grade school ako lagi ako nasa TOP minsan nga naiingit ako sa mga classmates ko kasi nandiyan yung magulang nila para sabitan ng award, si Mommy kasi mahiyain tsaka medyo matanda na rin kaya hindi siya nakakapunta sa awarding event. At noong nag high school na ako hindi pa rin maalis sa isipan ko ang katotohanan pag tinatanong ako ng mga kaibigan ko about sa family ko sinasabi ko na lang "menopause baby kasi ako e kaya ganun agwat namin magkakapatid" naniniwala naman sila. Si Mommy naging mainitin na ang ulo lagi na akong napapagalitan at minsan naikukumpara na rin ako sa ibang tao. Doon na ako naging emotional at sensitive. Minsan  sinasabi ko sa aking sarili na sana katulad ako nila ate at kuya. Matatalino kasi sila e si kuya Valedictorian nung high school, ate kong panganay Cumlaude nung College at yung ate kong pangalawa Salutatorian nung elementary wala talaga akong panama sa kanila. Kaya nga pinagbubutihan ko na lang ang pag-aaral ko para kahit papaano magka award ako hindi na ako naghahangad na maging honor.
          At ngayon ay College na ako lalong naging masungit si Mommy. Dito na ako nagagalit sa kanya ng palihim. Hindi ko alam kung bakit na lang siya naiinis sa akin, dahil ba sa ampon lang ako? dahil ba hindi niya ako tunay na anak? gusto ko kahit papaano magkaroon ako ng tiwala at pagmamalaki sa sarili ko kaso hindi magawa dahil sa una pa lang kahit yung tinuturing mong pamilya e hindi ka kayang ipagmalaki. Kaya thankful ako kasi kahit papaano may mga kaibigan ako pero sa mga kaibigan ko unti-unti na din silang nawawala. Nung papasok ako sa school, late naman talaga ako pumasok kasi late din na pumasok yung Professor namin  bigla niya ako sinabihan "Hindi ka magiging Professional!", napaiyak ako bigla! hindi ko akalain na masasabi iyon ng Mommy ko! at sobrang sakit! dahil Mommy ko pa ang nagsabi sa akin ng ganun.
           Simula nun ang tingin ko na sa sarili ko walang kwenta,bobo,walang future. Ganun na kababa tingin ko sa sarili ko. At minsan kapag may nang aaway sa akin ako pa ang pinapalabas na masama sa advice niya sa akin. Minsan sabi ko sa sarili ko sana hindi na lang ako nabuhay sa mundo kung ganito lang naman din nangyayari sa akin. Ang sakit isipin na hindi ka sinusuportahan ng pinakamamahal mong magulang.Kaya nga ngayon gusto ko makatapos para bumukod na akotutal nararamdam ko naman na mag-isa ako sa buhay,pinipilit ko na lang suportahan ang sarili ko emotionally,mentally and physically at ako na lang ang nagtitiwala sa sarili ko. Pero sa lahat ng iyon ay hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan na binigyan ako ni Mommy ng edukasyon at nagpapasalamat din ako sa pagpapalaki ni Mommy sa akin ng maayos.
            Tama nga sila huwag mong kakalimutan ang Diyos dahil siya lang ang makakaintidi  sayo at magmamahal sayo ng nais mong maramdaman. Sa ngayon ang ginagawa ko na lamang hindi ko na pinapakinggan mga sinasabi  ni Mommy. Iniisip ko na lang ang mga gusto kong gawin sa buhay.

No one can tell you what's right or wrong but in the end if you're not careful you could really get burnt (Kresha and Lee story)

            I'm Kresha and may boyfriend ako, siya si Lee. Naging mag-on kami since 4th year high school, masaya kami, minsan di maiiwasan ang pag-aaway ay siyempre mahal na mahal namin ang isa't-isa. Umaabot kami ng 1 year, 2 years at nung malapit na kami mag 3 years medyo nagkakalabuan na. meron nakilala at naka chat sa facebook, ang pangalan ay Helga. Nakukwento niya parati sa akin iyon na si Helga mabait daw at pati ang nanay nung Helga ka chat din ni Lee dahil may hindi pagkakaintindihan si Helga at ang kanyang Ina.Ang sabi ko lang kay Lee, "Naks! ang bait naman ng honey ko,advicer na! ang galing!". Pero hindi sumagi sa isipan ko na may something na sa kanila ni Helga. Hanggang sa ilang linggo always na sila magka chat. Nung pumunta dito si Lee sa bahay kinuha ko ang cellphone niya, nakita ko may text sa kanya si Helga wala naman meaning pero sa sent items ni Lee binura niya mga text niya para kay Helga, hinayaan ko lang yun dahil alam kong hindi ako ipagpapalit doon ni Lee dahil isa lamang yun high school student at kami ay college na. Nung gabing iyon nagtext sa akin si Lee sabi niya mag smart muna daw siya kasi itetext daw niya yung pinsan niya bukas na lang daw mag globe ulit. Doon ako nagduda dahil si Helga ay smart user, naisip ko na baka siya nag smart e para makatext lang si Helga. Pinalagpas ko ulit iyon dahil nga may tiwala ako kay Lee. Araw-araw pumupunta dito sa bahay si Lee, nung pumunta siya ulit sa  bahay namin pinakialaman ko na naman ang kanyang cellphone tinignan ko ang inbox at sent items niya natuwa ako dahil wala akong nakita na name na Helga sa inbox at sent items niya pero nung tinignan ko ang drafts niya may nabasa ako, naka save dun ang address ni Helga,nagalit ako kay Lee sabi ko"walang hiya ka! ano?!pupuntahan mo ito?pupunta mo yung Impakta!!" sabi niya"wala lang yan!".

            Simula nun hindi na ako napanatag , nagseselos na talga ako kahit facebook niya tinitignan ko lalo na yung message. May nabasa galing kay Helga,tinanung ko si Lee sabi ko "bakit ganun?! nagsasawa ka na ba sa akin??" still denila prince pa rin si Lee. Habang nagbabasa ako ng message sa facebook niya biglang nag chat yung Helga akala niya siguro ako si Lee, ang sabi ni Helga sa chat "I love you! mwuah!napuyat ka ba sa akin kagabi?" napaiyak ako at nanginginig sa galit tinawagan ko si Lee habang nasa school siya at sinabi ko sa kanya yun ang sagot niya "tinulungan ko lang siya sa assignment niya sa Chemistry" sabi ko "so kailangan may I love you talaga?" binabaan ako ng phone sabi niya may klase pa siya. As days goes by lagi ko na siya inaaway dahil dun dumating sa point na gusto na niyang makipaghiwalay sabi ko "ayaw ko! hindi ko kaya!"

umiiyak ako habang sinasabi ko yun, sabi niya "hindi ko na matagalan ugali mo!" sabi ko "huwag kang gumawa ng kwento at ipalabas na ako ang may kasalanan at ikaw pa ang niloko!" sabi niya " ilang beses ko ba sasabihin sa iyo na wala nga kaming relasyon ni Helga! buo na desisyon ko ayaw ko na, ayaw ko na sa ugali mo sorry! tama na!" sabi ko " sige kung ako ang may kasalanan o mali bigyan mo ako ng pagkakataon na magbago, sabihin mo lahat ng ayaw mo babaguhin ko para sa iyo wag mo lang ako iwan." sabi niya " sorry  ayaw ko na talga." nanikip ang dibdib ko at naninigas ang buong katawan ko iniisip ko gusto ko ng mamatay. Sa tatlong taon namin, basta basta na lang niya itatapon ang lahat para lang sa babaeng impakta na iyon! ang sakit! sakit! Pagkatapos ng mga nangyari, hindi ako lumabas ng bahay at hindi ako kumakain at nung medyo ok na ako nagbukas ako ng facebook ko tinignan ko yung profile ni Lee, naka in a relationship na siya kay Helga, napaiyak na naman ako inisip ko kaya niya ako ipagpalit sa isang taong di pa niya nakikita.

            Ngayon ok na ako naka move on na kahit papaano pero sa totoo lang galit na galit ako kay Lee hindi ko siya mapapatawad sa kasinungalingan at panloloko niya sa akin.

            Hindi talaga natin masasabi na ang taong mahal mo e yun na ang makakasama mo habang buhay maaaring pinagtagpo lang kayo ng tadhana pero hindi kayo itinakda para sa isa't-isa.

There are 5 stages in grief

1) Denial.

2) Angry.

3) Argue.

4) Depression.

5) Acceptance.

Lady In Red

Di ko naman napansin na puro red ako kahapon ahahahaha

Kasi nail polish ko RED, wallet ko RED ang phone ko RED ahahahaha

I love RED!!!!

and because RED is the color of LOVE :)))

Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx. 2. Take the Personality Quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

History of Valentine's Day

Valentine's day is a jumble of traditions, beliefs, and celebrations that has come to us from a distant past. It is celebrated on February 14th because it was upon this day that Saint Valentine was supposed to have been executed for performing marriages. It was a strange thing to happen to a priest who fervently believed in doing what he thought was right, helping couples to consecrate their love.

The story goes back the 2nd Century A.D. when Christians were persecuted by the Roman government. Christian marriages and other ceremonies were absolutely forbidden. The legend has it that Claudius II was trying to raise an army in Rome. It was his belief that married men would not make good soldiers because they would always be worried about their wives and children back home. To raise men for the army he forbid young men to marry. The punishment for any priest who would perform a marriage ceremony would be death!

Because he so fervently believed in love and the idea that marriage was a holy state, St. Valentine performed marriage ceremonies, placing his allegiance to God before the Government in Rome. The good saint was caught performing a marriage and was hauled into prison and after a trial before the emperor, beheaded.

This is probably the most dramatic story associated with Valentine's Day. It is thought by some (related in Butler's Lives of the Saints) that Valentine's Day was associated with February 14th as a way to supersede the pagan Roman holiday of the Lupercalia in which "boys drew the names of girls" to become their partner for the feast and dance. The stories and history surrounding Valentine's martyrdom are fairly obscure and references to the above story are relatively recent.

But there are additional legends associated with Saint Valentine. It is said that he loved children and would give them flowers from his garden. When he was thrown in prison to await his trial before Claudius II, he met the jailor's daughter who was blind. At his trial he had the cheek to try to convert the Roman Emperor. It was said to be this act that actually brought him the death sentence. While awaiting his execution, he touched the jailor's daughter's eyes and brought her sight. St. Valentine then wrote her a farewell message, and signed it "from your Valentine" which she could read because of the miracle.

With these two stories of St. Valentine, we have one that appeals to adults, and another that appeals to children. This dichotomy is interesting as it reflects the different aspects of the holiday. Children see it as a innocent romp where gifts and cards are exchanged in the manner that Valentine gave flowers to the children and a note to the daughter of the jailor. Adults see it as almost a sacrament where their serious love is celebrated in a serious manner. It is certainly a serious matter should a man forget to get a gift, or at least flowers for his wife on this date!

Of course, customs that occurred in Rome long ago spread because of the influence of Rome's army and later the Catholic Church which was centered there. The custom of Lupercalia and later Valentine's Day made an easy transition to the British Isles. In a custom reminiscent of Halloween, children would go about, house-to-house, singing songs, while adults tossed them flowers or pennies.

The custom of boys drawing the names of girls to find a partner for a party or dance (or even the entire year) died out in the late middle ages. The church frowned on the practice, so the names of saints were substituted for the girl's names. The boys were supposed to live their life for the next year in the manner of the saint drawn. This practice proved less popular, and the tradition of name drawing died out altogether.

In the 1600s giving gifts to sweethearts came into fashion. First it was flowers, and later (for the wealthy), jewelry. Giving a young lady a pair of gloves on Valentine's Day was thought to be the equivalent of a proposal of marriage.

As education and the ability to read and write became more widespread, written Valentines became popular. Calling cards were often inscribed with a brief affectionate note and passed to a sweetheart. In the 1700s card makers saw an opportunity and began making cards especially to be used on Valentine's Day. People wrote each other poems, and those who were not of a literary bent could purchase a book chock full of Valentine's poems for a penny, and copy one off. The practice of sending cards and letters on Valentine's Day really took off when the cost of postage fell to a penny per letter. Valentine's Day became one of the mail carrier's busiest days of the year.

The card industry in Britain began creating elegant and very expensive cards. However, machine production soon displaced the intricately worked cards with inexpensive stamped cards. By the late 1800s cards and letters on Valentine's Day had almost gone out of fashion in Great Britain. It was mainly relegated to children. The Great War (1914-1918) also seemed to put a damper on things. It was not until 1925 that elegant cards on Valentine's Day for grown-ups came back into style.

Because of the close association of Great Britain with the United States, Canada, Australia and a number of other countries, Valentine's Day traditions took off all around the world. Valentine's Day is also celebrated in European countries, including Germany, Austria, and Spain. In Britain children still get candy or money for singing songs. In the United States children frequently exchange cards, candy, and cup-cakes en mass in grade school, and grown-ups still exchange cards, gifts, and sentiments.

Although this article relies on several sources, much of the information provided can be found, written in loving detail, inFern G. Brown's, "Valentine's Day" which is currently out of print. However, used copies are available here and there. I wish to thank her for all her hard work in writing this short, entertaining, and fact filled work. It certainly helped give direction to my own research.

Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to December all the time



I CAN RELATE TO THIS SONG 




KATKAT

Can't Help Myself

Can't sleep tonight,
'Cause you're on my mind.
I guess I'm in love once again.
they say a star,
'Cause that's what you are.
You light up my life once again.

I'll take this chance for another romance in my

Life,
'Cause you're all that I need.

I can't help myself,
From falling in love,
With somebody like you,
'Cause your feelings are true.
Can't help myself,
From falling in love.
For I can't help myself...
From falling for you.

All day I pray,
That forever you'll stay,
And won't let our love fade away.
Hear what I say,
Whatever come away?
We'll be together come what may.

I'll take this chance for another romance in my

Life,
'Cause you're all that I need.

I can't help myself,
From falling in love,
With somebody like you,
'Cause your feelings are true.
Can't help myself,
From falling in love.
For I can't help myself...
From falling for you.

I've never felt this love,
Until you came,
In my mind.

And I can't help myself,
From falling in love,
With somebody like you,
'Cause your feelings are true.
Can't help myself,
From falling in love.
For I can't help myself...
From falling for you.

( I LOVE THIS SONG :) being simple is one aspect why people loves ME:-) )

It’s better to be loved and lost than never to have loved at all

Friendship is one of the relationships that does not have compulsion and is a voluntary relationship, which makes it a long lasting one. There are a number of people whom we meet everyday and some of them become cherished friends for a lifetime. On one hand where you can be friends with anyone, on the other you should be careful enough in selecting your friends. Finding good friends is not difficult, but honoring the bond that you share with them can be the difficult part.Your friends know the real person who you are and love you for being the same. You can share any kind of jokes, emotions and secrets with your friends. Finding that true friend in whom you can confide everything in him or her. Having a good friend is a true blessing and very few people are blessed with true friendship. It is important to understand that friendship is a two-way relationship, where you need to put in the same efforts and trust that your friend has in youSo choose your friends with care, as friendship is a lifelong bond that never breaks. True friendship is measured with the comfort of silence that two people share. True friendship is a person that will stand up to you when you are wrong. Will fight with you when you won’t listen to reason. Will applaud you for your achievements. Will risk life and limb to help you. A true friendship accepts you as you are. Accepts you for your flaws and failures and never judges the person, only the behavior.