She is beautiful girl
and popular to men in their University, her name is Carmi. She has a long black
hair that can be compared to black pearls and a skin as smooth as porcelain.
She basically has everything and most girls envy her well, most hated her.
Josephine cannot see the point why Carmi flirts with her boyfriend Sam when in
fact Carmi knows that she had the looks and the body to capture every man she
wished for.
If these two girls were
to ask of things inside their bags Carmi will definitely answer lipstick and
face powder while Josephine will utter books and eyeglasses. Yes, these two
girls are total opposites the only thing they got in common is Sam.
Josephine was simply
annoyed whenever she saw Carmi and her beauty conscious friends chitchat
together. She just hated the idea that these girls all know is to make themselves pretty. Every girl
has a story to tell, but their stories are really sucks. She considered them
under develop whores and she just can’t stop calling them names especially when
they start to talk about her dear Sam. She knew long before that Carmi really
likes her Sam but much to everyone’s surprise he courted her instead. But
Carmi, knowing the fact that Sam is now her man, didn’t stop just yet to tell
her fantasies to her friends.
“He was so cute and if
you could only see his eyes when he looks at me, it feels like a lightning
struck to me and it goes to my heart and then beneath my soul.” Carmi said as
Josephine accidentally passed by a room where Carmi and her friends had a so
called girl talk. Josephine hid behind the window and started spying. “I wanted
him to hold my hands because I know he needed someone to hold to,” Carmi added
with her very sentiment bared to everyone. “He may deny it but I know he’s
lonely and I hate seeing him on that mood”.
“My Sam doesn’t beed your hands, thank you. He’s well
comfortable with mine, may I correct you. We’re pretty happy..psychotic girl!”
Josephine shouted to herself as she releaseher anger on the plant in front of
her. “She better stop talking now or else…” she was pulling every leaf of the
plant as she recalled the last statement of Carmi before parting from her
friends, “I need to be near him.”
Josephine was really annoyed what does Carmi mean? She
needs to calm down. Sam won’t cheat on her. She knew that true love is the
foundation of their relationship and there is no way for Carmi to ruin it. She
had to release her anger, she has to talk to someone. Her friends already went
home so she decided to bother her cousin Emily instead.
As she talked she
figured out that her cousin doesn’t want any company for the moment because she
was too focused reading on her philosophy book. Her cousin is a weirdo but she
doesn’t have any choice. She rather choose to talk to this pathetic one than to
let her mind blow of fury.
‘She’s a total freak,
you know that? ” her words cannot be delayed as she rests on the other side of
the bed. “Oh I’ve got a wonderful idea, what if I’ll go to our Guidance
Councilor and ask him to help Carmi with her psychological problem?” Her idea
made her stand and breathlessly faced Emily to see an unconcious expression. She was still waiting for
her cousin’s reactions but still after a couple of minutes, her face didn’t
move a muscle at all. “C’mon don’t you have anything to say? I need some consoling
here help!”. She placed her hands on her waist. “It’s late I must sleep” after
a long wait her cousin answered as she closes her book and headed to her lamp
to turn it off and sleep leaving her standing eyes flaming with anger.
“This is really a not
so very, very good night I’ve ever had in my entire life.” She uttered in anger
slamming the door as she walked out the room.
Josephine was late on
her first subject the next day because she had a hard time sleeping last night.
The though of Carmi seducing her Sam bothers her so much that she almost forgot
the examination she ought to take half an hour from now. She is sitting on the
corridor hallway when she saw Sam with his friends at the parking lot. He looks
happy, she guessed. The smile on his face makes her smile too.
“Carmi misunderstood
everything” she murmured as she started writing notes into her pad. For
heaven’s sake, she knows that she must be focusing on her notes right now but
she can’t stop herself from thinking about Sam. “We had an agreement that’s it!
If she’s thinking that me and Sam split up because she doesn’t see us together
this past few days, well she’s taking the situation wrong!!!”
Sam and Josephine had
an agreement that they won’t stick together whenever there are major exams.
They did try to study together several times but instead of reading they both
got failing examination results.
She had to pause for a
while to think if she’ll not going to break their agreement now or leave Carmi
on her wrong assumption for all she care. She need to be with Sam..to be
secured one more time.
As she stood and
started heading to Sam she saw the smile that always made her day. Who would
not love a man that can make your weak knees seeing that closed up smile? Sam
from a distance waved on her and made a sign that he would just call her after
his class. Josephine looked at her wristwatch and it is already past three in
the afternoon she almost forgot the examination and she knew that Sam had exams
too. Having no choice, Josephine disappointedly nodded then sighed until he was
out of sight.
On her way to the
classroom she saw Carmi talking to a friend. “He called me last night and said
he’s sorry because he felt like he took me for granted.” She’s aware that she’s
fifteen minutes late on her examination but she just can’t miss out any words
Carmi might tell. Her grades didn’t matter anymore she’ll listen. ‘And this
morning I saw him outside our house waiting for me. We talked.” That’s it!
Josephine totally stunned as she heard her saying the words she didn’t wanted
to hear. ‘Is it possible that Sam is cheating on her?” She better look for Sam.
Enough of spying she needs answers right now!
She prepared herself
for the worst situation to happen as she walks through the hallway towards
Sam’s classroom but he was not there. She looked at every room in every
building but Sam nowhere to be found. She is about to lose hope when she heard
a car stopped on the other side of the road. It was Sam. She almost collapsed
as she saw Carmi inside the car, smiling. She can’t believe it’s true. Sam did
cheat on her. She felt heaven and earth dragged up and down. Her breath stuck
on her throat and she can feel her heart stop from beating. Her muscles to weak
to stand and for just seconds she became pale.Her emotions betrayed her and
suddenly drops of tears flowed from her eyes down to cheeks. Public didn’t
matter she cried releasing all the pain and regrets.
Sam didn’t call she
kept her cellphone on and even turned the tone on maximum but he didn’t call.
No matter how she convince herself that the ride meant nothing yet still the
phone didn’t ring. She must stop this foolishness if Sam can’t be honest with
her she will let him be. It doesn’t matter anymore how much the truth will hurt
she needs to know.
She could almost see
the end of it when he saw Carmi talking to her friend on the last step of the
stair. Drums hammered her heart fast as she gets nearer to them. She not
expecting an early an early confrontation her plan is to talk to Sam first to
clear the matter but since Carmi is now here she decided to deal with her
anyway. Only a step drew them apart. She is tanding facing their backs when she
finally got the courage to speak when Carmi’s voice came in. Her words don’t
sound usual she seems to be bothered and Josephine is not used to it. Her
instinct dictates that she must listen. So she does.
“He picked me up
yesterday and we went to a park” as Carmi continues her story. “We talked a lot
of things until we eneded up talking about Josephine.” Josephine’s ears turned
big and she moved closer as curiosity pulls her into the conversation. “He said
that he couldn’t believe that it’s happened between them. He just can’t take
the distance that’s getting farther and farther as time goes by.”
Distance, distance, distance,
the words keep on echoing on her consciousness as Carmi delivers her next
outburst. “Since that day he can’t figure out what exactly had happened. He
tried to convince himself that it was purely destiny but he can’t accept the
truth”. Josephine still puzzled of what Carmi’s talking about moved closer and
closer. “Helongs for her and he is not contented with just a piece of memory he
wanted her back into his life.” “I did not go anywhere you…you let him think
that I don’t exist” her mind speaking to Carmi. “I wanted him to forget her, to
move on, the world waits for him. There are lots of good things waiting for him
it did not end there.” GRIEF. ‘She doesn’t belong to him… never!!!” ‘he is mine
you know it from the start” Josephine answered Carmi’s final anguish. She stood
up because of excitement. She needs to meet up with Sam. Whatever his
sentiments are.. she will be willing to patch things up. She knew it. Sam
really loves her and he won’t cheat on her. A smile flushed on her face. She
indeed grabbed the last laught after all. As she stepped forward she heard
Carmi’s friend talk. ;hush…he’ll realize it soon don’t worry.”
“Realization..what was
that…and when?” Carmi is confused. ‘Josephine has been dead for five months, he
should have recovered from that loss. That day on the parking lot was really
horrifying. Who would have thought that a car inside the university would ran
over here? It was an accident and no one expects it to happen.” DEAD. Josephine
stunned she wanted to laugh at them, tell them that they are fools. Carmi and
her friends really have mental problems…
Before she took off she
faced the two girls with her hands on her waist, But much to her surprise she
felt a strange sensation into her boday passing beneath her bones. She was
shocked. The girls just passed through her and she abruplty felt the coldness..
but there wasn’t any wind. Instant
solitude came. She’s fighting the sensation of numbness but to no avail.
Darkness. Followed next
was a cloud full of darkness that effortlessly succumb her consciousness. Her
memory slowly captured her being. Noises, pathetic faces, she heard the
ambulance singing, the voices of men everywhere commanding students not to
cross the line. A man I weeping besides her, blood stained his clothes, his
face on his hands…he was crying, Sam was crying.
Her sight drew dim,
tears blur everything she could clearly see a while ago. That day, a tragedy
happened. She doesn’t want to think of it. Denial. That is what she’s trying to
do. She needs to see Sam. She needs him that she is alive. She runs as fast as
she can to reach him. He was there..in the parking lot and he was holding
something she could hardly see. She moved closer and touched him. He must feel
her touch. Her warmness like before.
Josephine felt nothing
but coldness as her hands pass through his shoulders. She breathed deeply and
closed her eyes. Again she attempt to caress his face but he rhand no longer
has the power to console the nature of reality. She stood in front og him face
to face but she couldn’t see his eyes. He’s in front of her but his eyes can’t
find her.
Suddenly tears flowed
and she couldn’t stop his tears. She control as she cried harder, she can no
longer fight the denial. She is dead. She is dead. She found a hollow soul deep
into his eyes. Blag!! He dropped something. A book. It’s her cousins. She
kneeled down She could feel the roughness and the ashes that pondered in it as
it lay on the land. She needs to carry the book back into his hands but when
she finally looked up everything turned into dark.
Another
darkness.Strange.Then one by one she saw the students heading to the parking
lot. Bang! The sound was earsplitting. Then she saw her cousin running towards
her, armed stretched her face wet with tears. Bang! With just a blink of an
eye..her cousin dropped dead. She screamed so loud that it caught the attention
of everyone. Then she heard another gun fire one afther the other. She saw
armed men marching in the parking lot. Blood thirsty men who murdered almost
everyone. Her eyes looks for someone..she couldn’t find Sam. She started
running faintly, too scared to be seen by those brutal armed man.
“Help!!!” she heard
voices screaming with terror. It’s Carmi and her friends. Josephine wanted to
help them but it was too late. A knife was struck into Carmi’s throat as she
attempts for another call. Then very loud gun fires followed. Smoke covered the
dead body of the girls she hated most. She doesn’t want this. No. The tought of
it scared her as she run. But when she finally saw Sam a harsh car bumped her
off.
Noises, pathetic faces,
she heard the ambulance again, the voices of men everywhere commanding students
not to line. A man is weeping beside her, his clothes blood stained. She
thought it was hers but she was wrong.
“This is a tragedy. No
one made it. Everyone is dead!!”
“No this girl made it.
She is alive!” the nurse smiled at Josephine.
